"Pour your hearts out like water to the Lord" Lamentations 2:19
This past week has been so challenging for me. One of the hardest weeks since we found out we lost her. Emmy for sure would have been here right now. Even if she didn't arrive on her due date of May 17, by now, she would have been here. And it is so hard being in this season and not having her, because this is what I had dreams about. I had dreams of holding her in the baby carrier outside while I watched Addy play. Addy was a winter baby, so I was so looking forward to being able to take my newborn outside and nurse her or let her nap on me or walk around with addy. I envisioned friends coming over to meet her as we sat outside on our deck. Being outside in this summer season reminds me of everything that never will be and it absolutely devastates my heart. I'm sad. I'm angry. I'm really angry. I don't get it. I wrestle with "why." I just don't understand. I really don't understand. I shake my fis...